So the young adult mid-week service at Seacoast has come to an end. Last night was not just an every tuesday service, it was the last tuesday service.
In many ways I am left speechless. I can say that the service was awesome, it rocked (literally, twice as hard- we basically had double the band), and that I was surprisingly sad. So much change has happened in my life at that service, and I know that God was the one changing me, not the ministry, but I find myself being attached to the service itself. And I know that God is still here, with me, just as he always has been, but I can’t help but feel like a whole, packed chapter in my life is closing. My mind keeps running over all these events and services and moments in small groups, with friends, with family. My life has been changed dramatically, literally from darkness to light, and the Lord chose to use that service as a vehicle of change.
I know that life moves on, and I guess last night was the perfect picture of that. But I guess the thing that struck me the most about last night’s service was the worship. Actually, the way we worshipped. Unreservedly. Everyone. Even the unlikely. Even the tired. We worshipped like we knew that there was no promise of tomorrow, like the moment that counts is the one that’s happening right now. That this worship was our sacrifice, devoured by Holy fire, and acceptable for the Lord. Maybe if I’d been worshipping that way for the past 5 years my heart would look very differently today. What if I worship that way today…and forever?
The cross before me,
the world behind.
No turning back,
raise the banner high.
It’s not for us,
it’s all for You.
lindsay page said,
April 18, 2008 @ 8:12 pm
beautifully written, Abbi. It brought tears to my eyes.
thatsathought said,
April 20, 2008 @ 3:05 am
What amazing thoughts…you captured my feelings exactly.